Morgenstern

So I'm never on anymore really, I just can't write about my life.

Anyway, I'm here to see if anybody on this side of the web can help me...
I'm working on a project for my biology class, and it's on pollution credits. (this link explains pretty well what the deal with this is, if you don't know and are interested. warning: I've made some people angry by enlightening them on this subject...)
I'm trying to make it to where those who see it can be like "Wow...THIS is how close I actually am to the issue" by having a couple lists along with the information on the system, basically: who sells their credits, who buys credits, and who completely tries to make this system work. (though I don't think that last list will be very long...)

I've searched all over google, to no avail. It just gives me more ways of defining the whole system.


Any help would be VERY appreciated.
:D

Short version: http://neverblue.deviantart.com/journal/23012676/

Long version: http://mercuralis.deviantart.com/journal/23000665/

I guess I should take a minute to update and say that I am alive and well (though without power and hoping for pneumonia so I can go to a hospital and get a hot shower) despite the wake of destruction Ike left in its path.

This thing is due for an update, but I don't have the patience right now.
We're at an internet cafe, and I'm borrowing my mom's old Comcrap Compaq. When I get power and can use my computer, I guess I'll do a brief overview of things.

I have a friend on deviantArt from Illinois who had an aunt and uncle in Galveston. They did not evacuate.
They are alive, but they lost everything. Their house was completely leveled.
It's awful, but it makes me appreciate that the worst that happened to me was just losing power...and that's tolerable at least. I couldn't imagine having to start all over, losing all your precious keepsakes...pictures, everything...

Happy Halloween!

All this iPhone crap is getting on my last nerve.

"I'm just tired of the iPhone fanboys shooting huge sticky wads and high-fiving each other (literally) over their stupid cellphones."(-Maddox, The iPhone is a piece of shit, and so is your face.)

So your phone is 4 or 8 gigs. It's a typical phone, the internet, a movie player, and iPod(or as Maddox points out "software that plays mp3s"), and whatever other crap you don't need.

I have a 30g Zen that plays music, radio and videos.
I have a computer...I can get online and play movies and music on it! I can message people!
I have a DVD player...guess what? Movies and music!!!
I have a phone. It calls people, texts, takes pictures, and gets online.
I have a camera. It takes pictures.
OoOoOoO

So you can post shit online with your new iPhone while listening to music?!?!?!

ZOMG! I CAN DO THAT WITH MY COMPUTER.

Stfu already. It's a waste of money. Lazy assholes.
You don't see me creaming over every piece of technology I own.

So I think last night kind of really hit me.
I'm sad that I didn't get to say as much as I wanted to or planned...between the time limit and everything...I forgot about half of what I wanted to say.

I have no idea how I'll make it through next year without these people...they've been my family..my life..for the past three years. They were my reason for not going home, and my escape from when things sucked. My time in the department...I feel like it wasn't long enough...I miss freshman year and not doing anything...I miss that extra bonding time.
I miss most of the people I'm leaving already. We didn't get to really know each other as well as I would have liked to...
Everybody in the department has gotten me through so much that they don't even know about.

There are the incidents that people knew about, and actually helped me through...like when my grandpa was given like 3 days to live...KC took me out for ice cream. Or the girls night Katie Walden and I had last year the night of band banquet...or Becca adopting me for a few hours after my aunt made me cry for an hour.
Those are the moments where what our family has really shows. I don't care what anybody says...I'm pretty sure that we are the closest group in our school. Kristyn was absolutely right when she said that no matter what is going on between us, you always know that we'll be there for each other...
This entire group of people...they've meant so much to me...I'm at a loss of words..I have so many feelings for them and what they've all meant to me...how much they've helped...
Last year and this year...it's been such a big deal..everything...I just don't want to lose any of it...to have it end...I can say I'm tired of rehearsals, or that I just want to go home and rest...but when it all comes down to it...what am I going to do with my free time now...will I ever have this again with so many people?
God I hope it stays....or that I find something like it...because it's too much of my life to have to give up forever...

Family: Two or more people who share goals and values, have long-term commitments to one another, and reside usually in the same dwelling place.
Love: To have an intense emotional attachment to.
Life: Anything or anyone considered to be as precious as life.

Those are three of the most important and strongest words that I think of when I think of these people.

And now an incident at NASA?

Walking out of that school with our heads held high, disappointed, heartbroken, tired, but not crying.

The bus ride home, in silence for the most part.
I remember disliking the judge for not appreciating or understanding the play. He did not like the play we chose, and because of that, we were not advanced to state.

We were upset, yes.
But we lost with grace. We lost with knowing that we made it farther than any CFISD school had in a long while. We lost, silently mourning.

We knew we were robbed, that we had lost to simple flash 'n' trash. We had the set, the perfect time, the incredible talent. We did not need fancy sets to cover up our lack of talent.

We did not whine and moan to every ear. We did not post 3 blogs each dedicated to theatre, or The Last Night of Ballyhoo. We did not post bulletins in support. We did not brand ourselves or fellow thespians with a Ballyhoo logo.

We lost with dignity, and we were happy knowing that we had made it that far.

There were few tears shed. We gave each other a hug that night, said we loved each other and would miss it all...and then we went our separate ways. Some to eat, some to go home.

We did not sit for 3 hours on our stage crying and thinking of everything we did wrong. We did not perform it that night after the competition, on our lonely stage.


We lost with dignity. Without a fuss.

Which is more than the band can say at this moment.

There's only one word to describe Snakes On A Plane.

That would be "ridiculous."


It is MORE than worth the $8.[well, that's how much I had to pay, anyway]

Cougar Express=today.

PE
Economics L
Anatomy Physiology(idk if it's k or not..)
Creative Writing
English IV L
Theatre III


...I'm debating on changing to K govt/economics.

To those who have taken it: thoughts? Is it bad?
The only K class I've had the past two years was German...and really...calling it K was a laugh, cause you don't really do anything.

I'm mostly just worried about changing it to K, failing miserably, then needing to drop down & totally screwing myself over.

I know it's going to be hard.
I know I may not get through.
I see how hard he's had to work through it all, and how much hell he's been through..but he's still doing it.
I know I'm not as stong willed as him, and I may not ever be able to get through.

But damnit, I'm going to try, even if I may end up having to drop out and live on the streets. This is what I want. And I'm tired of nobody having faith in the fact that I'm trying to think about this and plan it out.

I just wish people would take me seriously for once...I'm not stupid.

Not dead, I just have no life.

Michael went out of town last wednesday. Almost-yearly trip to Illinois. He's gone until Saturday. UGH. hyjugttfrdghjnkhgfhbnsdguhbsdllbghd fnfgnb

I'm babysitting his guinea pig until then.

In other news, I sold my Zeppelin "How the West Was Won" poster & 3 CD set today for 10$ to Holly.


And yeah. That's about my life at the minute. lol

I found this on on of my friend's blogs, and I think everyone should see it...

"America: From Freedom to Fascism by Aaron Russo - 14 min trailer" on Google Video
If you discovered that the income tax was voluntary, would you continue to volunteer?

Am not dead.

Would post, but it's summer, and I have no real life.

Re-did my freewebs site again. I'm selling some prints of some photographs I've done. I guess if you're interested, you can ask or whatever.

Meh..I guess that's about it.

Oh yeah...

July 7th. PotC II.

So, life has been happening.

I'm really tired.

Short jist of my past couple months(just basic highlights. not those so-called "short entries" i've written before").

Anyway. To restate myself, I'm really tired.

Shower and sleep time. Now.

Goodnight all.

Just though I'd let you know that though I have not visited even just this site, let alone y'all's individual journal's lately, I am in fact still alive.

If you want, go ahead and leave a comment(long or short) about happenings in your life currently/while i was gone. I've missed you all.

"Nunsense"- It's habit forming! Thursday, January the 26 through Saturday, January the 28, and Monday, January the 30!!! In the Cy-Creek H.S. auditorium at 7 p.m.! Adult tickets: 7$; Student and Catholic Clergy: 5$!!!! Come see the musical comedy hit!

Ps.
So, this Satanic Jew and a Nun walk into a bar...

My friend, Keith(go figure...), found this, and I like it:



Had fun with dad today. I made a sexist comment..that was happy. It's times like those that I really hate being a girl, lol. The sexist jokes comments don't work as well..
Not a whole lot to say?

George R. Brown Center with Drama, tomorrow. That'll be fun. ^.^
Then Pfluger family Christmas.....with Judy.
....And her daughter.
.........And her daughter.

*Yay?*
I really do hope I can be civil tomorrow. As much fun as it would be to defend myself when Judy does her shit, it's not the best time for her to. But if she does say anything, I'm going to defend myself. I'll try to keep it civil and more mature than her...

I'm out for now, though. Tired + 6:30 a.m. wake up tomorrow + gone all day + needing a shower still.
Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays everyone! ^.^

I'm baaaaaaaaccckk!!

Finals were hell. Got my report card today, though. Surprisingly they didn't rape me as bad as I thought they did:
Final grades:
Chemistry: 81
Theatre: 96
German IV: 83
Algebra II: 78
Six Weeks Averages:
U.S. History: 87
Chemistry: 78
Theatre: 100
English III: 94
German: 86
Algebra: 77
And, semester averages:
History: 91
Chemistry: 83
Theatre: 95
English: 95
German:84
Algebra: 80(that was really close-almost lost my B. it's actually a 79.6)


Anyway, not a lot going on. Buddy is kind of back?
Bryan's soo close to getting kicked out. Wait..actually, last time I heard, Buddy wants him out asap. He's so foul-mouthed and disrespectful towards my mom, and everybody else. Stupid racist and just...gah. Everything. Everything, damn near. Pretty much if someone is not a heterosexual, male, white, Christian(Catholics excluded. he will insult them), they will get insulted in some way or another. I swear to God that if it was possible to divorce your siblings, like you can your parents, I don't think I would think twice about doing it. I'm sooo ready for him to get out of this house. Y'all have no idea...

I'm sick of this "War on Christmas" b.s. Both sides are being completely ridiculous. Oh *wow* someone told you to have a Merry Christmas, when you don't celebrate? They were being nice. So they told you Happy Holidays? So what??? Maybe they don't know what you celebrate. *Maybe* they were scared of offending you. Oops! Too late. Looks like they did.
My friend Keith made this really good point the other day on a myspace bulletin; I copied & reposted it. It talked about the "war" and he cited sources about different religions celebrating the same time...I can't remember exactly all that it brought up. I know Pagans and Jews were included...
(Death: I saw your bulletin after mine...I dunno if that was some sort of thing against mine? But I want to let you know that mne wasn't meant as a bitch against people saying it. Just the ridiculousness of it all.)

I think people should read this, posted by peaseblossom03. And definitely listen?

Switching topics again(cause there was enough said on that last one).
RENT. Definitely an amazing movie. I really cried during it. Only movie I've gotten that emotional over? It was like...I'd want to cry..then I'd tear up..then I'd be happy..then want to cry...and I finally did. After a few more mood swings.
Anybody who hasn't seen it, should. I'm anxious to see the play now, somewhere. To see how they do things, how much different it is.
I think my count was 5 times of having seen it so far? Ridiculous? Maybe. Worth it? More than.
I just love how a couple guys I've known have gone to see it- they hate musicals. And they're not really emotional. Both of them loved it and wanted to cry. Michael actually went with me so he could see it a second time because he liked it so much.

Only two of the times I've seen it was it actually a decent[acting] crowd. The first time, because it was opening night, and half of the people there were in theatre..lol. And the last time. The time I went with Sam(antha), though..we got really pissed. First, we walked in, and were these two older(grandpa-ish?) men sitting in the very back of the theatre together...it was cute. ^.^
But then some stupid other teens came in..during the movie they were making rude comments and saying shit whenever the two gay guys kissed...after that Sam started leaning on me and cuddling. I dunno why that sounded like a good idea at the time..? Just to irritate them, I guess. But we did...and continued singing the songs and stuff quietly together. lol.

Saturday is George R. Brown Center with Drama Club to help the homeless, again. ^.^ That'll be cool. 7-11 a.m., though. >.< Oh well? Good cause. And it was fun last year. Dad's going to pick me up after that and we're going to Grandma's house? I'll get to see my not-quite-but-very-nearly-evil-spawn-of-satan-stepmom! *Joy!*
Oh well. I'll deal. I don't plan to put up with anything from her this year. Really. Like last year she was talking about my mom? Nuh-uh. I don't care anymore...

Christmas we're spending with Grandma & Grandpa. Ya know..Mom's side. I dunno who all is coming over. Oh well. That'll still be fun though. ^.^

I guess that's about it. Though I hear LJ is giving(has given, rather?) us more icons or something?
Sorry if this was kinda long. >.

Thespian convention was amazing. ^.^
We still have internet, apparently?

Will talk about thespian later or something.

I'm going to pull a Chelsea, since I don't feel like reading back zillions of entries, and ask what's been up since Wednesday with all of you.

Let's see, where did I leave off?

Midsummer went really well. I'll try to get pictures of it eventually. I'm sad, though, 'cause I'm pretty sure I didn't get one of me in my costume.
Speaking of, now that's it's over; I can tell you all: I was the Starbucks Faerie. Got an apron and a hat from there, and I brought on Starbucks to wake the lovers. I loved that costume muchly.
Anyway, second night we almost had a full house; which apparently hasn't happened in years.

Sad to see that show go...as stressful as it was; it was still really fun.

Got my report card. Can't find it at the moment, but I got A's in everything except for Algebra, which was an 81. Not too shabby; thought I was failing German for sure. Was waaayy off, apparently? Ooh! Just found it under loads of stuff. History: 96, Chemistry: 91, Theatre: 90, English: 95, German: 92, and I alread said Algebra. ^.^ Definitely best report card in a while.

Um..what else? OOH! Wicked was soo amazing. I just..wow. ^.^
After the show, you could see some of the cast by the stage door. Only knew that 'cause we passed it on the way to the car, so we got to it a little late. >.< I got the autographs of Emily Rozek(Galinda[she was the understudy who performed the night we went]); Derrick Williams(Fiyero); and Jenna Leigh Green(Nessarose..she was also in "Sabrina The Teenage Witch"- the mean cheerleader, Libby).
Got a picture with Jenna on my phone(will put it at bottom of entry).
I started crying during "For Good."
But the show was just..amazing. And soo hilarious. *sigh*

Leaving for Thespian convention after school at 3. *squeal* We'll be getting back sometime around 6 a.m. Sunday. ^.^ Yay for early vacation!

Other news?

Oh..We found out on Thursday that my Grandpa's cancer spread to his lungs. He doesn't know.. he misunderstood the doctor or something? and thinks it's gotten smaller. And..nobody wants to tell him so that he won't give up.
I feel like such an awful person for it, too..because I don't feel anything. Mom told me and I just..I didn't have a reaction. It was just like "oh..okay."
Today I almost started crying the car for about two seconds.
I hate that, because I love him so much...but there's no reaction. Maybe it just hasn't quite sunk in all the way or something yet....

And that's pretty much it, I guess.

Well, except for apparently Buddy's becoming his normal self again.
The internet/cable is getting cut off tomorrow because he doesn't want it in his name, even though mom'll pay it. And apparently he hasn't been paying the house note. And...next month he's going to stop paying electricity or something? And supposedly in January he's filing for divorce.
Something to that extent.
If you have AIM; you'll still be able to get me by that, 'cause last night I figured out how to get the i.m.s forwarded to my phone. I'll have to go to the site though so I can change my option to allow people not on my buddy list to i.m. me.
My s/n's: xpfluger07x

If you don't have AIM(even if you do), and I know you personally, e-mail me at arpfluger@gmail.com and I'll give you my cell number.

I can still get online at the library down the street to check stuff occasionally.

Yeah..now that's it.

( Except for the picture... )

And I hope that whole "losing internet" thing didn't sound all "woe-is-me-it's-the-end-of-the-world-cause-I'll-have-no-internet-now"-esque. I just figured I'd put down ways to find me if you wanted to.

Later all.